What a day!

Today has been a creative day! its been fun! I've had a lot of emotions stuck up in side me that last couple of days, lots of things to think about, and what a great way to get them out by doing something creative. Today I've played the piano and sang a bit. I haven't done that in a long time, and when I've got this house all by myself during the days, why not sing and play without feeling the pressure with my parents there listening and singing along, and without feeling exposed. I don't mind having audience, but when your just playing to get out some feelings its so much better to do it alone ;)

After playing the piano, I painted. I figured out earlier that since I'm not what you call rich, that I would make some Christmas presents, so today I started to paint on a couple of gifts. It's such a great way to just use colors to express the feeling you're feeling right there and then. It doesn't have to be a motif, just color and you'll end up with a painting that you know symbolizes something real, your emotions.

And after the painting (can't paint that much at the time cause the paint has to dry..) i made a poem..haha.. not a big thing, but i think the creative flow came over me today.. and now I'm having fun with photoshop! I discoverd yesterday that dad had bought photoshop elements, so now I'm playing around with all the things you can do there.. fun!

I <3 Line

Line, or fine, I miss you! There isn't a person that can make me laugh as much as you do. We have so much fun together, laugh so much together :) You always know what I mean when I talk about my feelings, your always encouraging and inspiring. You always listen to God, you're being led by him, and just the time I've known you I can see that God has done so freaking much in your life! I love it! And I love spending time with you :) Just like that evening on Ikea (where the picture is from). We had so much fun! Testing beds, reading children's books, laughing :) Spending time with you always cheers me up! I.e. watching Glee with you. Who am I gonna watch it with now? It's not that funny without you!

Can't wait to have you over here in January! Its gonna be great!!! Love you fine-tiger!

First week back home

It's been over a week since I moved back home to my parents. It feels like I've been here for such a long time, and at the same time it feels like I just came here. The first days were a lot considering I was tired after packing and all the good byes. but it was fun at the same time, I got to celebrate my sister in laws 27 bday, I got to go to church with my brother and his wife, i met up with some friends, I've eaten a lot :P gone for walks, gotten irritated at the polish guys redoing our bathroom (haha, they didn't know I was home on monday moring, so they were yelling at each other so much and so loud that I woke up because of it, but when I got down stairs the just suddenly went whispering the rest of the week), and I've also experienced something sad, a friend passed away. When you loose someone you realize how much you love the people you're surrounded with, and you see the support and love they give during a difficult time. It also makes you aware of saying to your friends that you love them, to actually talk to friends you see are struggling, to not take people for granted. On the other hand to loose someone is frustrating. Why couldn't God just stop him from dying, why does the family have to go through this when they've already been through so much? It's not easy to answer these questions, and all I can think of is that this is not Gods will, we live in a evil world, theres a constant battle for us, a battle for our lives, and what God really wants us to do is to open up for his love, enduring love, and I pray that this time of grief would bring people closer to God, to his everlasting love. And it is with Gods love that we as Christians also have hope and life, that death isn't the end of things. it's just the stopover to heaven.

Back to the week ;) all in all it's been good to be back home. I do miss the quest tigers, but theres no place like home, right? Not only are you surrounded by family that loves you and supports you, but hey, everything is free! haha